Why do i take this constant heartache?
This vomit, inducing pushpins and glass,
splitting me open so the blood's gash, gushes out from my throat
Her flower blooming,
consuming these tears that have been built up for what seems like years
till this day
Happiness goes back to being just a dream,
maybe wishfull thinking?
But i wonder if happiness was ever real
or did it conceal the susspence building up
to the end of a nightmare?
I'll watch how far this goes,
ingraved in stone, my feelings for you, Yes!
but you're not getting the point
You dont know that as your tongue slips her name
and i fall into the same, shit again
you're, putting a gun to my head.
So I, lye in bed, hoping you didnt see past my false laugh
Those empty smiles, plastered on
with sticky cheeks that seep with envy
and half dried tears,
caught mid way in their fall, for the fear
of being ot obvious.
And as others read this,
the question of me staying will arise
and though i despise, her name
all i can say is
I'm your Disease and
I can never leave.
My dedication to your soul out runs the pain i try to hide from you
And it's true, what i'd do for you...
Anything? Everything? Forever.
because saving me from this hell I've
so gracefully put myself in, why is it such a sin to stay?
i can't just go
and i wish i could show you
My lifeline beats in your heart
Swallow my soul, i think you've understood
Hiding my feelings forever could
work but i know i'll break, for my
strength has been tested one to many times,
My fragility cracks down my spine,
with another one of her stories...
like the stories my heart falls, head over heels for you
the day you said "I love you" and I lost my breath
The stories i wish i could fall,
i'd loose it all but my eyes would stop singing,
the ringing, in my ears because of her name
the same paracite that crawls through my mind
infecting thoughts so divine you'd think it was a fantasy
but its not.
Her stories,
Her STORIES! are the things that make me cry everynight
for the fear of the fight i'll have over you,
Yes i get it! our love is true but so was yours and im not damn ready to give that up.
You mean more to me than the air i breath,
the sand beneath my feet on the beach we walk in my dreams.
Hand in hand intertwined waiting for the tide to wash us away,
struck by the end of the days sunset before our eyes.
You dont realize how much you are to me.
The little notes you write,
the lines you recite in my ear capture my heart.
I fall inlove with you again everyday,
and i wish i could say, how, but i dont know
like how the wind blows, and blows, and flows to me
like the seas from your eyes, trapped in time
because there's not enough time to show you,
But I know you, well enough so that when you come home late
i know you're not with her,
So the stories wont keep multiplying,
and my lying about being ok, arent nessisary.
So i know that, my tears will be gone before they even appear
because you'll be here and dissapearance isnt an option.
So when i gain a few pounds you wont make me work out
because you know i hate that.
When i'm not so brave and im screaming at the mistake i've made you'll say
"babe, i love you"
And when we make a new life, when we feel its right
You 'll cut that cord and write it in huge letters on the board
"Im her Daddy" or His daddy, it doesn't matter i know you'll be there,
so is it really fair for me to complain about these words
her words?
No its not, but I know that if i dont fight for you
and i let her words come through she'll take you.
Like the words i take from my head to paste these words together
to form a rhythmic letter you might not even understand
but when i hold your hand that doesnt matter,
im caught up in the moment, time my apponent but im lost
lost in my head, lost in space
our hearts at the same pace, forever.
Forever, forever...
Or maybe its never because time can't lable this love
Its a Timeless classic, hollywood fantastic love story,
Keep repeating those words that assure me
How you say you'll turn my life's dissaster into our
happily ever after
And i'll reply you're crazy,
And those days you'll get lazy and forget to call,
won't matter at all because as long as you're alive i feel your love,
and its enough to get me through the day cause i'll call later and say
"I missed you" and i will till im with you.
Till that day you get down on your knee and
tears streaming down my cheeks i'll scream "I DO"
Because no matter how much BS you put me through,
and pointless poems i write for you
When forever passes, and we're still together
bound, dove to feather
I'll tell you "I can't live without you"
So we'll fall asleep, bodies pressing cheek to cheek
and our hearts will be lost in timless space for this
timeless love was never encased in anything more than
teenage hearts for an eternity together
rememberance of our time together will be etched into cold stones
but our bones will seep hearts into the earth
passing onto a new birth that very few deserve to have what we had.